I’ve come to the realization that I need to give up on CrossFit. While it’s a good system, it just isn’t for me. I wasted a LOT of money and years figuring that out. For now, I’m using a program from Hybrid Performance Method, and plan to climb a few days a week. I’ll report back on how that goes.
Yeah, still no progress. I was in a groove for a little bit at a local CrossFit gym. I was going in during open gym time and doing one of the Power Athlete programs. Sadly, that gym got rid of open gym a couple of months ago. So, I joined a different affiliate, but haven’t really been in since then (read: I’ve been wasting money at a gym I’m not using).
Right now, I’m looking to use the GymnasticBodies foundation course, along with a few days a week of CrossFit and some bouldering. I’ll let you know how that turns out.
Why, yes, I have said this before.
It’s been an odd few months. Procrastination, snow delays, and finding out a beloved pet was dying all side tracked me pretty bad. So, another fresh start this week!
Starting is easy, it’s my follow-through that stinks.
I’m mostly checking this when I feel like it, so don’t expect anything on a regular interval.
I realize bodyweight isn’t usually a good indicator of health, but considering how obese I am, it works for the time being.
5/26/14 – 289.2
7/7/14 – 270.0
Total loss: 19.2
1) After a weekend of nothing but cough drops, I lost 10 pounds. If anything should tell me I’m carrying too much weight, that’s it.
2) I’ve been a little concerned that I had some sort of illness, as I never feel wide awake, and sluggishness seems to be a symptom of 90% of illnesses. However, even having a nasty cough keeping me from sleeping, consuming no sugar for several days had me feeling more awake than I have in a while.
3) For the last several years, I’ve had this weird thing going on where my calves twitch and cramp really bad when I’m trying to sleep. I thought it was due to me not drinking enough, but lately it’s been happening when I’m fully hydrated. Well, turns out I may have a dairy allergy/intolerance/sensitivity or whatever. I’m going to try replacing the butter in my bulletproof coffee with ghee, and avoiding all other dairy. If that isn’t enough, I might have to figure out another quick and healthy breakfast plan.
I graduated college in 1997. At that point, I weighed 160 (I’m 5’8″). 17 years later, I weigh 290ish. I haven’t shared this with anyone I know, but I had some blood work done a year or so ago, and my blood sugar was high. If I’m not a type 2 diabetic, I’m definitely getting there. Additionally, I just turned 39. So, I no longer have youth in my corner.
So, with all that going on, why do I fail at eating healthy and working out consistently? I’m not exactly sure, but I’m starting to think it’s a pretty dark answer: I’ve given up on myself.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not suicidal or anything, but I spend most of my time alone, I’m single, I have no kids, and only one real friend to speak of. I have the feeling that my long string of failures at life have ended with me just letting myself waste away.
Deep down, there’s still something in me that wants to fight this fate. Unfortunately, it has to overpower a much stronger sense of self pity and loathing. We’ll see where this goes…
Like many people who are grossly out of shape, I’ve have several stops and restarts over the years. I’ve even tried blogging before for accountability, which didn’t work. It’s very clear that y biggest obstacle is me.
So, I feel I’m in a better place lately, which means I’m giving this another go. My official start for logging stuff will be this Sunday, so see you then.